i like the feeling when we are together..
when we are bitching about each other..
telling each other how we felt..
after all the misunderstanding
without holding back..
i am glad i made the effort..
after all its 10 years of friendship..
now that i will be leaving..
i will keep you in my heart..

friends are one of the most important things that happen in my life..
i am so lucky that i have a bunch of friends.. who never fails to make me laugh..
understands how i feel and care for me whenever i need them..
although we always club n club n club.. and many people thinks that we are really superficial friends who only go club together.. but all of us know that we are more than what people thought we are..

we've been through like many occasions together.. like each other's birthdays.. hari raya.. deepavali.. new year..valentine's day.. and its christmas.. and we are still together.. finding every possible reason for us to club..

example:
daph is gone.. let's club..
daph is still gone.. let's club..
daph is coming back.. let's club..
daph is back.. let's go club..
daph is going back.. let's club..
orh.. weiling is going off.. let's club..
tmr is deepavali.. gotta celebrate.. let's club..
its friday.. let's have hokkien mee ( beside zouk there's this place that sells hokkien mee)
what shall we do today? let's go shop.. (shop shop shop).. its 930pm already!!! raj get out of the changing room! let's go already.. (before 10pm there is like free entry)

although almost every single topic we talked about has relations to clubbing.. but we never fail to entertain and make each other laugh.. cause we truly understands that.. other than clubbing.. the hanging out sessions.. chilling and talking session made us grow on each other more.. like fungus.. from jc times to now.. our circle has grown..

today.. we had a christmas celebration.. then all of us were there.. raj.. joo.. bren.. nana.. shirl..wil.. me.. daph..and huiwen.. there wasnt a intended gift exchange.. but yet in the end.. everyone bought something for everyone.. be it home make brownies and cookies.. and kinokuniya jellies..(konnyaku).. or shirts.. caps.. body wash.. and sweets.. and cards.. its like really sweet and heart warming..

we had lotsa of food.. like.. steamboat..log cakes.. jellies.. kauy lapis..salad.. brownies.. sooo much food! practically ate alot alot.. and its been really fun..

truly wanna say thank you to your guys.. for being so important in my life.. now that i am going off.. i realised and i appreciate the existence of you people making my life whole.. loves!

love is such a scary and amazing thing..
it can cause you to do irradical things that you know deep down in your mind that you shouldnt be doing that.. i think i am getting dumber..

previously i was caught in a situation whether or not to go gip for 6 months.. its not really a very long time.. yet it seems really long.. like.. anything can change..in the 6 months..

many things went through my mind.. like.. dance.. how much i will missed out.. driving test date.. i will missed it if i go china..and i will have to renew my PDL.. and may have to retake my FTT.. doh.. what else? my studies.. i will have to overload so much more.. more than other people.. need to really stay focus when i come back.. my church.. i am so going to miss my church.. and of cos.. how can i forget my friends.. the every friday night clubbing sessions.. and.. lastly.. that guy..

i thought of giving up my gip experience for him.. convincing myself that i will be losing out on alot of things if i go.. at last.. i decided not to go..

yet.. yet.. it just make me realised that love is so vulnerable.. we dated for about 1 month plus.. and yet he changed his mind..saying his feelings faded..

because of some things that happened in the past.. i tried to be serious in this relationship.. being serious.. yet.. he isnt lah.. what can i do? i am not bitter.. when he told mi forget it.. i really put down my feeling immediately.. and recovered the next day.. even shirleen said i am amazing.. maybe i am.. but its not really up to my choice..

maybe i was disappointed.. like really disappointed.. i decided to just forget the things here... go overseas..

and until i got to encounter this really cute guy.. and i cant believe that i even let my decision waiver for a bit.. that was when i decided enough is enough.. i will go regardless what happen..i seriously dont wanna let whatever love or feeling get the better of me..

i told myself not not not.. to have any single bit of feelings for anyone.. not even a crush.. cause i am going to shanghai.. what a dumb me.. is it possible? ha.. God knows..

i am so awe by the super duper good dancers.. youtubing now.. watching all those lyrical hip hopers.. man.. i have a recent craving and addiction for lyrical hip hop.. lyrical hip hop is those kind of dance that is slow and smooth.. not agressive and strong.. some examples are songs by neyo..omarion..tamia..frankie J.. and the most recently song i learnt is cant help but wait by treyz song..

the first lyrical hip hop song i learn was wait for you by elliot yamin.. and i kinda fell in love with lyrical hip hop.. but it was until the second time i learnt baby love by nicole scherzinger that i realised that i kinda suck at lyrical.. lol.. i confirm that when i learnt from rizhal the song almost by tamia..totally lost...

damn.. the style its very different.. cos its more about following the lyrics rather than the counting.. this is what cs taught me.. patrick also commented in jitterbugs class that girls are the ones who are not very good at lyrical.. dunnoe why.. the guys seems much better.. man... i so wanna do well in that then.. hee..

recalling back the old days when i dunnoe a single thing about hip hop dance..and i thought i knew alot.. but i always like hip hop dance.. but the first contact was when seok jio me to go try out classes together.. and we joined hall dance together..then i realised that how lousy i was.. i suck at remembering steps.. and my senior commented that my body control is bad.. :( and i am not conscious of it..

then seok and i decided to join modern jazz (hip hop).. i totally couldnt remember the audition steps.. after that.. i felt really sad.. and i know my standard is totally not there.. in the end. seok got in.. i was left behind..

to be honest.. i was quite jealous of seok.. that her results are always better than me.. dance wise.. she is became really good too.. but it only lasted for a short while.. and becos of this.. seok became my source of motivation too.. i love seok! :) she encouraged me alot lah.. i am grateful..

i began to take up classes like seriously from patrick.. and it really did make mi improve.. training for hall dance also helped level me up.. all this lasted about one year ba.. until it was the next round of audition..

i wanted to try again.. but i was scared.. afraid.. that if i try... din get in.. i will be devastated lah.. " maybe i should not even try.. so i wun be disappointed.." this thought came to my mind.. until seok invited mi to dancetitude.. i watched the performance.. and i realised how much seok grew.. she is like super good.. and this motivated me alot too.. talked to pat.. and he encouraged me to join.. was really glad!!! so i plucked up courage and tried again.. this time round.. dont care.. just whacked.. i overcame my fears and tried..

few weeks later.. seok sms mi.. and said.." welcome to mj, dear.. so proud of you.." i was on the bus travelling home.. i was super elated.. the joy is equivalent to winning 100,000,000 dollars.. i was so excited on the bus that i almost cried out lah..

now i am happily leaning in jitterbugs.. mj.. and became the hall dance captian.. bliss.. :) i am soooo going to miss dance when i go to shanghai..

last night.. as usual.. we went clubbing again.. this time round the attendance consist of raj.. shirl.. pris..dap..charis and dap's friend..bren and wil.. quite a few of the constant are not around.. so abit disappointing.. but well.. most of the time i am with my mj friends..

as there was this code edge dance competition held at zouk last night.. some of my school NTU senior joined the competition.. and our dance club (modern jazz) went to support them as a team.. i only arrived in time to see 2XS.. and they are really good.. caught patrick loo doing his solo on my phone cam too..very small.. but oh well..

as its a dance competition.. zouk is packed with alot of dancers last night.. and it felt really good to be surrounded with dancers.. cause all of us share the same passion and its kinda fun to dance with people who can really dance well.

the modern jazz people include qi zhi, wei zhi, keith, aisha, mel, riz, yu heng, xiao jun, eve, cs, and many many other mj seniors whom i dunoe their names.. we occupied like this spot and danced our night thru.. kinda cool and sexy..

anywae.. cs was one of the contestant for the code edge competiton.. he is one of the senior i looked up to in mj.. his team won third position for group category..felt its really good already..

i saw dion( dunoe how to spell his name).. one of the dancers for hall 9 last interhall competition.. that group that hall 7, my hall lost to by one mark.. hmm! this time round we will win back the 1st place.. although i wun be dancing.. due to gip..:(

some of the mj seniors drank alot i think.. ahhaa.. cannot hold their liquor well.. or they simply drink too much.. :P but they are really hot when they dance lah.. even when they are like super high..

too bad my seok isnt here.. she went to msia for hols.. if not we can dance together.. i also wanna go msia.. i wanna go genting.. lol.. enjoy the weather and go there jalan jalan.. who wanna go?

in clubs.. guys either must be really good at dancing... or have a very nice looking face to catch girls' attention.. this guy i danced with through the night.. was really good at dancing.. its kinda cool and enjoyable.. :P

by the way.. i was very elated lah.. when my senior told mi that he actually wanted to include me in funkamania whereby they choose a few girls and train them for the competition.. it feels kinda good to know that they did consider you.. cause it shows that your efforts are being regconise..however, because i going for gip shanghai.. i will not be able to join.. but the fact of just knowing already excites me greatly..:)

everything was fine and good..got on the cab. and went with my usual friends.. :)

14th dec 2007

this is my second time doing community service..helping out in the christmas celebration party for the elderly home.. sing song to them.. chat.. share the joy of the real reason for christmas.. and all these really make their day.. and my day.. cause at the end of the day.. many of them were so touched by jesus's love.. which is definitely precious.. met quite a few people from church too.. i felt really touched lah.. i will like to do this again.. helping people.. and from there.. you realised that you are actually helping yourself too.. to grow..:)

after which. i went to meet my precious shirleen.. :) orh.. long time did not see her..cos of my exams.. then her exams.. met up with raj, dap, charis, eugena and wilson too..:) my loves.. never fail to make mi laugh..

i am helping my friend to promote her shopping website.. i went to take a look.. she really does have alotttttt of things man.. ranging from beauty products to slimming products..like gold mask, coloured contact lenses, eyelash tonic, DAS comb, E-slim machine.. the price are seriously not expensive.. can go take a look..

at this website

www.shopping-diva.blogspot.com

My latest addiction.. presenting to you tohoshinki/dongbangshinki:

i was looking through all the entries i posted in my blog.

hey. at this point of time.. i like this guy.. then he looked at mi in the canteen!!

orh.. after 2 months, i stopped liking him.. but i was really busy with school work and cca..

ah ha.. this is the day, when i cosplayed at downtown east.. woh.. i dressed at as this.. so cool.. man.. i cant even remember it now..

all these past emotions kept floating through my mind and heart.. reminding me how i am a person in the past.. and how i have become now.. there is a saying.. whatever happens in the past, is what you are now.. and what happen now will determine your future..

i saw the way i evolved and changed, becoming more mature in thinking and the way i blog as well..

in the past was all the.." wah lao!!! i hate it when you do this.." or " so long never blog le!! super happy today.. blah blah.. and the " she is soooooo irrritating!!!!" its all the emojojo thingy.. i felt like i was really emotional in the past...

and now away with the emotional ups and down.. for emotionals are not wrong.. but we shouldnt let it get the better of us.. i am going to live a life that is good and do things that wun cause mi to look back and regret from now onwards.. :)

Finding my Raison d'etre

{this is story taken from an email sent by a friend...it has touched my heart... i hope it will touch your heart too..}

May God keep you and bless you. If this doesn't give you chills, nothing will...this message is very true. Hope you are all as blessed as I was from this story.

There once was a man named George Thomas, pastor in a small New England town.

One Easter Sunday morning he came to the Church carrying a rusty, bent, old bird cage, and set it by the pulpit. Eyebrows were raised and, as if in response
Pastor Thomas began to speak..."I was walking through town yesterday when I saw a young boy coming toward me swinging this bird cage On the bottom of the cage were three little wild birds, shivering with cold and fright.

I stopped the lad and asked, "What you got there, son?"

"Just some old birds "came the reply

"What are you gonna do with them?" I asked

"Take 'em home and have fun with 'em," he answered "I'm gonna tease 'em and pull out their feathers to make 'em fight .I'm gonna have a real good time."
"But you'll get tired of those birds sooner or later. What will you do"
"Oh, I got some cats," said the little boy. "They like birds. I'll>>take 'em to them.

The pastor was silent for a moment.

"How much do you want for those birds, son

"Huh?? !!! Why, you don't want them birds, mister. They're just plain old field birds. They don't sing. They ain't even pretty ."

"How much?" the pastor asked again

The boy sized up the pastor as if he were crazy and said,"$10

The pastor reached in his pocket and took out a ten dollar bill. He placed it in the boy's hand. In a flash, the boy was gone.

The pastor picked up the cage and gently carried it to the send of the alley where there was a tree and a grassy spot.
Setting the cage down, he opened the door, and by softly tapping the bars persuaded the birds out, setting them free
Well, that explained the empty bird cage on the pulpit, and then the pastor began to tell this story.

One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation

Satan had just come from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting.

"Yes, sir, I just caught the world full of people down there..
Set me a trap, used bait I knew they couldn't resist.
Got 'em all

"What are you going to do with them?" Jesus asked.

Satan replied, "Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun "

And what will you do when you get done with them?" Jesus asked.

"Oh, I'll kill 'em," Satan glared proudly.

"How much do you want for them?" Jesus asked

"Oh, you>>don't want those people. They ain't no good. Why ,you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you and kill you. You don't want those people !!"

"How much?" He asked again

Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, "All your blood, tears and your life

Jesus said, "DONE

Then He paid the price .

The pastor picked up the cage he opened the door and he walked from the pulpit

Notes: Isn't it funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell

May God keep you and bless you. If this doesn't give you chills, nothing will...this message is very true. Hope you are all as blessed as I was from this story.

Isn't it funny how you can send a thousand jokes through>> >> >>>>>>>e-mail and they spread like>> >> >>>>wildfire, but when you start sending>> >> >>>>>>>messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about>> >>sharing?>> >> >>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>>Isn't it funny how when you go to forward this message, >>you>> >> >>>>>>>will not send it>> >>to many on your address list because you're>> >> >>>>>>>not sure what they believe, or what they will think of >>you>> >>for>> >> >>>>>>>sending it to>>them.>> >>>> >> >>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>>>> >> >>>>>>>Isn't it funny how I can be more worried about what >>other>> >> >>>>>>>people think of me than what God thinks of me.
{end of quote}

Jesus died for you....

i understand that there are many out there who do not believe in God..i respect your decision..
but if ever any of you wants to know more about the one who loves you so.. i will be willing to share.. :)

can you send me a picture of you, so i can tell santa what i want for christmas? :)

Some video my brother introduced.. watch it.. if not "I kill you~"

dancing.. jumping around and making merry.
singing the familar songs we hear each week
emotions are high and full of joys
having your friends around you and all of us are enjoying ourselves

guess where am i?
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zouk??
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no!!
i am in New Creation Church.. my beloved home Church..
For the first time, i attended the Arrow Ministry on Saturday, where students from age 17-29. Not only the sermon was good and filled with the love of Jesus, Pastor Benjamin Lim was really hilarious and speak our language.. what facebook..heros.. relationships and stuffs.. totally enjoyed myself alot.. towards the end of the sermon, the lights were dimmed and disco lightings came on.. we were singing and praising God..what ministry of sound.. this Arrow ministry is so much better!!

Today, Sunday, i went to Church for sunday service, during praise and worship, there was a particular song the choir used hand signs while singing. its similar to those kind of school days when kids do the cute hand signs. Sulin and I had so much fun following it lah.. i thought to myself.. its so much better than Mambo..

As alot of my friends know that i like to club, these two service its like God talking to me.. showing me that.. there is so much more to life than clubbing.. It's so much better than clubbing lah!! While people dance to their sorrows and nothingness in club, we people in church dance to celebrate the love of Jesus.. Praise Him! :)